sonnet You were inspired by

You were inspired by envy from our start
Your gloss of feint praise gilded me a mug
Ignoring gut intelligence with art
It was just humorous you whom Id hug
Real love heals it allows a prior pain to part
Whatever baggage brought by you Id lug
Along in love I craved fresh course and chart
Your pain repressed wild doubts would ever tug
Your envy struck at me a sudden jolt
I wore a lack of warmth by dizzy dint
Of wishful thinking worked up from a hint
I was upfront and open nice to fault
But no you nodded far less good than bad
Your envy sabotaged what things we had
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